2 very special person I met last year.

I made friends with 2 special retards last year.. We always acted like retards and all but something happened till now, I am still doubting if they're still angry or hate me or what..
I should really stop doubting.. My life changed a lot since I met them.
We still hang out and all.. but sometimes I wonder.. Do they still hate me?
Or am I just thinking too much?
Words cant tell how much I want to tell them everything, yet I can't.
Every sad and happy moments of my life.. I can just tell them a part of it.
Can't even tell them my blog link. I don't really want them to read this or they might think i'm a retard or what.

I am confused.
You deleted me as your best friend. It hurts a lot at first.
But now.. everything seems so normal.. we hardly talk about it. We still act like best friends, deep inside you're still mine. But am I still yours? I doubt it..

Sigh.
I love you, friend.